damn today. what a oh-so-great day for me. wtf. nothing to talk about in sch. just all crap anyway. for some reason just feeling crappy.
i went home and well, got nothing to do and just idled around. then cam and her mom came home from facial. she told me my mom asked her whether i had a secret boyfriend. i dont really know whether i should laugh or be mad at her for not trusting me. all my damn bro's fault. keep saying i have a boyfriend. fuck.
thanks for being so mean and cold. i really appreciated it. thank you. dont keep venting ur fucking anger on me as u like. damn u. i m not born for u to vent ur anger on. where's the fucking trust when u need it? all crap. all of those around mie. you dont have the right to talk to and treat mie this way, cos u dont know me. you think u are all so high and great. letme tell u, u are nothing. fuck. ha. i know, i m a like a toy, when you guys feel like it, you treat me so nice. when u are bored, u stuff mie aside. fuck.

cant u guys LEAVE ME ALONE? damn. i m not happy. u think u are hurt and sad over those petty things? what about me? ME? if the world probably forgot, there's me? fuck. oh ya, right, i forgot, the world doesnt revolve around me. if u dont like me, tell me straight in the face. just shut ur bloody talk and listen to me once. dammit. stop flaunting.
everyone knows i m unhappy. but not u all. why are u guys so oblivious to the pain that u have inflicted on me? ISNT IT OBVIOUS? sheesh.

i dont want to cry every single day then end up with puffy red eyes the next morning and use concealer to conceal them. hah. oh right, see me laugh everyday. i m not okay. why everything cant be left behind last year? why not? why cant all my unhappiness be left behind and letmme start anew? why not? i will not complaining, just letmme be more positive.

i just hope they can stop being so frustrated with each other. i don wanna see them fighting. x(
PLEASE.

letme just forget everything. i am breaking down- or already broken down.
i just want to sleep on and on. i cant carry all the unhappiness, they are too heavy.
i want to put all this down and run away. run far away.

i dont want to remember the times we spent together.

ur insinuations were so clear. yet i did not understand. sorry. it was my fault. i was dumb enough not to understand. i will shut up and go away. likewise, i hope u dont bother abt me too.